The Game Plan

2008-08-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

moved=)

http://wilson90.livejournal.com

2008-08-03T21:27:00.001+08:00

loads of work. i hate jc life. feel like quitting school now lor. promos in a months time. back mugging

I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
But I need you to know
I miss you

2008-07-27T00:50:00.005+08:00

swirling clouds in violet haze

nothing much this week, road run on wednesday. had a kbox session with classmate. it was quite fun haha. went to mrs neo house today for maths consultation, i can say that it was fruitful. at least i didnt waste my afternoon=) pooled with xiaoli after maths.

everytime i get a chance to see you smile
its not complicated, i am so jaded.

i love you now like i love you then.

2008-07-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

my blogger has miraculously revived. the past few weeks have been fine. dancefest yesterday. met up with best deiwnd to buy something and some food b4 going for dancefest. baik yuni tara yeokfei, you all were great=) had a chillout session as usual after dancefest at subway with joshua alea mengseng and charmaine. ha so much fun and laughter. CONVEX=) haa its a secret joke, right char?=) went home after that and today was ptc. ms khoo totally raped me. long story not gonna mention it here, but i promise i not gonna talk to her from today onwards. and the following is for you best friend, wanted to post this long time ago but my blogger was down. haa i know you are moving on fine but deep down in you you are still hurt. you gotta show him that you will stay strong and you can live on happily without him. you know that you always have friends like me who are always there for you. you have always been there when i needed someone and we are like having a deal with each other, that we will always be there for each other till one party die. and i gonna tell you the same thing you told me, always here whenever you need=) even if it means going home late though i have alot of work to do and when my eyes are so small and swollen and painful. a small step may go a big distance. i'd buy you many sundaes, write on many tissuepapers, and sit by the playground till midnight if it takes me, i promise=). laugh together, cry together. "don't judge people before you know them, because you'd have no time to love them". saw this somewhere and it is so meaningful. and lastly, your torres that i promise you

2008-07-19T00:52:00.000+08:00

2008-07-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

2008-06-09T18:40:00.004+08:00

同恩 - 不准哭

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚
因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱
我不需要谁温柔安抚

请放心我很快就能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路挡不住你追逐
不准哭我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福

如果我消失不见你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊我很在乎
因为爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是我的最后让步

请放心我很快就能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路挡不住你追逐
不准哭我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福

爱情就到这里结束
我们不得不不得不屈服
只能笑
不准哭我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路挡不住你追逐
不准哭我学不会微笑祝福
祝你找到祝你找到对的幸福

though this song is like abit old, but i still love it. the lyrics are so meaningful haha. holidays are boring with the mugging for common test. but it will be over in a short while. AND THERE IS EURO08!!=). though there is no england, but VIVA PORTUGAL=). RONNY!

2008-06-01T19:31:00.000+08:00

You Are From Mars

You're energetic, althletic, and totally hyperactive.

You love playing sports and being in the middle of all of the action.

You're independent, corageous, and brave. Unafraid to do things your way.

Mars can be reckless, quick tempered, and a little too spontaneous.

So think before you act - and resist your natural urges to dominate others.

What Planet Are You From?

2008-05-30T22:18:00.003+08:00

bahh so tired out by the school term. thanks god its a month holiday and not a week=). haha nothing much this week just lessons and dota. yess dota. i am learning to play k. haha class chalet nxt week. quite looking forward to it ehh=). and i shall get my man utd merchandise this week and my new shoe by this weekend! jealous pk?=) haha till then.

girl i still miss you badly. and i swear that i love you now like i love you then.

2008-05-22T06:07:00.003+08:00

GLORY GLORY MAN UTD:D

CHAMPIONS OF ENGLAND, KING OF EUROPE! WHAT'S MORE CAN YOU ASK FROM THIS TEAM OF TITANS! THE FINAL IS DEFINITELY EVEN OUT, WITH BOTH TEAMS CREATING ENOUGH CHANCES TO WIN. IN THE END CHELSEA CRUMBLED UNDER PRESSURE, AND ALL THANKS TO ALMIGHTY VAN DER SAR!:D ITS DEFINITELY DAMN GAN JIONG TO WATCH LA, ESP WHEN RONALDO MISS PENALTY, RIGHT PHAYKEY! ARGH IN ALL CASE WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS:D ALRIGHT GO SCHOOL HAOLIAN NOW!

CAMPEONE CAMPEONE OLE OLE OLE:D

THIS BELONGS TO MAN UTD:D

2008-05-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

thanks everyone for the wishes&cakes&cards&presents yesterday. you all totally made my day with the PRETTY PINK STUFFS from 08s19, the super cute domo wallets by sher and char and the pretty cards by 07s27. you know you all have been great, but i just cant express it out well. but deep down i tthink you all know that i love every single of you yeah=). dinner yesterday with the PAE clan at newyorknewyork, have a great laugh and make a big fuss out of FORK haha and as usual the burning session. so mised hanging out with you guys and my KOH FAMILY huh! meet up soon will us! next up mengseng's?=)

2008-04-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

Leona Lewis Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen uhm ooh ooh ooh yeah

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

2008-04-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

life is busy. ahh let me keep it short and sweet. ms khoo is *#@$^&%.

2008-04-13T21:56:00.007+08:00

POP is over. ok it's alright today, but i thought POP was super fast? maybe becasue the guest of honour was punctual. after that was the usual stuff, enrolment service, games with the church people-.-. after that was outing to pulau ubin! haha had alot fun there, didnt waste my 4 bucks, no 8 bucks there! right from the start we were busy camwhoring, not really doing what we shld really do over there. and yess, i finally learn how to throw rock and make it skip on water. haha and we made a new friend, called brother xiaobao=). he is very obedient and took care of us throughout our short stay there=). haha before we left we had our dinner there with a coconut each, AND WE FOUND OUT MJ OWE US DAMN BLOODY LOT OF MONEY, HOR MJ! shall not elaborate much. the pic says all.

PULAU UBIN=)

ehh mj follow the authority can

the beautiful banana plantation

mj, that looks gay,

random shot.

wl boy! what are you doing?

brother xiaobao!=)

mj, respect leh!

the emo BABIES throwing stones.

boys, which way?

LOL.

last but not least,

and all that tends towards brother xiao bao=)

2008-04-12T20:12:00.002+08:00

POP tml. how fast is that. feeling abt nostalgia today after watching gb handover and going through POP rehearsal. 5 years ago, this sec 1 boy was standing in the guard of honour contigent, eagerly waiting to be promoted to private with 17 other recruits. and he had a dream, which was to be like mr yeo chin cher, parade commander for the POP. 5 years ltr, he did it. though it's like nothing, but to him its always an honour to be commanding for a parade, be it a small or big one. one thing that he always had in mind, is that he loves BB.

watching the gb handover brought me back to the good old days. yess the only thing that i enjoyed in ahs is cca. the friendship forged can nvr be compared to others, not even to god's love for us. "as we go on, we remember, all the times we, had together, as our life chang, come whatever, we will still be, friends forever..." as the gb sang this, images just keep flooding to my mind. tears rolled down but i tell myself to stop, cos i still have a POP to manage. BB.

sometimes i would ask myself, why do i want to come back and suffer under HIS hands and not running away as far away as possible? my parents would nag at me, " is cca that important to you?" yess i asked myself this too and i really could not find the answer. until 5 april 2008. these 12 boys gave me the answer. yess its my passion and love for BB that keeps me going. i always want to be a part of 14th coy, then and now. cos BB had become part of my life, and seriously. i did not regret.

okk enough of that. KFC was fun, with all the jokes on rizvan and weijian, ehhh no offence la. i always love all these moments with my boys. POP, dont screw it up please.

2008-04-06T16:13:00.005+08:00

NO REGRETS.

AQ yesterday. the boys came in 11th. its really a great achievement, considering that the competition is so strong this year. the 1st team came in just after 5 hrs. pure madness. boys, dont blame yourselves or each other for the result, cos everyone put in thier best effort and noone is to be blamed. you all had trained so hard and like i told you all, not only the result, the whole process matters too. i am sure all of you have learnt and grown up alot throughout the whole AQ, be it leadership, discipline, perserverance etc.what you all have achieved already make us feel proud of each and single of you. not winning doesnt equal to failure, but not learning anything is totally failure. at least you all know you all compete with integrity, how many teams can do it? treat AQ'08 as a learning lesson, though you all gotta learn it in a hardway. every single detail counts, be it bearing or what. let us not look back and move on, cos only moving on will make us grow and achieve greater results.

take ac milan as a role model to learn from, they were leading 3-0 at half time during the 2005 UCL final remember, just let you all, leading at a point during the race, but liverpool did a miracle comeback, and in the end ac milan lost the championship to liverpool. it was a devastating result at the point, cos noone expect them to lose their lead. but did they give up on themselves after that loss? they didnt boys, they moved on and grown up. when they meet liverpool AGAIN at the 2007 UCL final, they showed that they had learnt from their mistakes, they overcome the psychological battle and showed liverpool what they are made of. they battled them right from the start, and in the end took home the championship, winning liverpool hands down.

so boys, AQ'08 has passed, let us now lift our heads high and move on. show the res that we can recover from the setback. let us not stop here, but continue to work hard for AQ'09 and i will not break this promise, i will train hard and lets join the open race next year, and together with the boys teams, we will bring glory back to 14th coy.=)

you all didnt form by chance.

2008-03-31T23:16:00.004+08:00

just like a star across the sky
just like an angle off the page
you have appeared to my life
feel like I'll never be the same

girl i miss you dearly

2008-03-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

L.A.N was great. the bbq food is nice and thank god the rain stop at the right time!love catching up with you all SICs and EXCOs! haha the camwhoring and bitching sessions are so memorable=). i am so looking forward to the leaders chalet where we can spent time camwhoring like siao again!=)

ok off studying. stupid chem test tml. fun-o-roma on sat, see you soon best friend=D

replies are all over here.
audrey - OMGG I FELT BURNT LA EVIL GIRL!
claudia - heyyy fellow foxtrotian=)
elias - ehhh yes meet soon leh, MOVIE AGAIN=)
weilin - haha yess i do have! linked=)
debra - quickly help me change k! see you around and remember, show life you biggest smile=D
mel - YO TWIN=D OMG I MIS YOU!
jonneh - biatch you are linked.

2008-03-16T20:16:00.002+08:00

this whole week had rather been a busy week. spent the first few days overseas, great shopping trip=). then there was recruit hike, so different than the previous ones. recruits i'm not angry with you, just disappointed and heart-broken, in 2 short years the standard of bb has dropped drastically, because of MOK? yeahh maybe, from the experience of LDC1 and recruit hike, he is mainly to be blamed but boys you all gotta buck up your standards seriously. remember, BB is not about winning AQ. haa, okay recruit hike is kinda fun, with foxtrot so high throughout the camp and nightwalk, manage to scare quite afew people ehh=). and audreyy, only sheena scares people when walking around k!

alright school re-opens tomorrow, a new journey begins and surprisingly i am so looking forward to it. maybe because it is my first time in 18 years completing my holiday assignments yeah=). this time round, it gonna be different=)

2008-03-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

thanks best friend its always nice talking to you, and yess i will not forget about God, like what you said He is right in front of me and will be a great comfort cos He is the only one who feels the exact pain i am going through. i am feeling better now dont worry i will stay and live strong=).

Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth. You will again bring me up, you will increase my honour and comfort me once again. -Psalms 71: 20-21

2008-03-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

SQUASH, BBQ AND LDC.

2 sleepless nights is quite unbearable. yesss ldc camp ended today and it's great to see a new bunch of leaders moulded and fulfil their great potential. all the best boys and it's really up to you all to salvage our company.
ponned ldc for awhile and went over to greg's house yesterday for a gathering with the squash mates. and it's really great to see you all friends=). had a great time bbqing and squashing, SCOOTERING LIKE LITTLE KIDS. haha these moments are just so unforgettable and the friendship we forged within a month is really indescribable=). thanks friends for these memories and let's have more of such gatherings soon k!=)
heard char humming 'here i am to worship', and i really miss going to church. and yess, i haven been there for ages, sorry i was really tied down to alot of stuffs, but i promise to step back into one soon=).

here i am to worship

Light of the world, You step down into darkness.
Opened my eyes let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore you hope of a life spent with you.

And here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days,
Oh so highly exalted Glorious in heaven above.
Humbly you came to the earth you created.
All for love's sake became poor.

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.

I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
And I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
No I'll never know how much it cost to se my sin upon that cross.

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.
So Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that you're my God,

2008-02-23T14:57:00.001+08:00

BLIND

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

2008-02-20T18:54:00.002+08:00

HOPES DANGLE ON A STRING

first day taking a bus ride to school and back home alone. wth i dont like the feeling. and yess i was stupid to wait the the busstop, hoping for my phone to ring and "c.j calling" appearing on my screen. and yess when i finally accept the truth and board the bus, i did not give up hopes and miracle and surge to the back to see whether you all are there not. truth hurts, and it seriously does so. ahhh i so bloody miss you all people. appeal back to tpj k? i know i am being selfish, but these show how much i love you all isnt it. progess test on going, and it's getting hell out of me.

i'm here without you. gosh, i think i am i in love with you.

2008-02-19T19:04:00.009+08:00

A NEW JOURNEY AWAITS

on the 7th Jan 2008, a bunch of 23 people came together to form 08s06. fun loving they are, always so special and crappy. the days we had together were filled with thrills and joys. but on this very fateful day, 19 Feb 2008, the chapter of this fairytale has closed. everyone gotta moved on their next journey. thanks 08s06. thanks for bringing so much joy and laughter to my life, thanks for bearing for my crappy antics and everything. you know you guys rock, and no class can ever be the same as you. this class just seems so special to me, it is just sensational. it have definitely change me and help to shape out my future. i will misss you all badly, i will miss all the hotdog days, the club sandwich chiongings, the asshole taitees and bloody knuckles, the cold jokes and chill it out sessions. i know that it will not be the same anymore, but let's just keep in contact and have outings often, cos 1 day i believe we will continue on chapter 2 in our fairytale=). thanks friend. charmaine sherrie joshua genia gaurav chekkai jianming jessica, i will so miss you all, lets have squah sessions soon k=).

C.J 17=)

CHARMAINE JANE KOH LYE PENG, happy birthday! haha bimbo! you know you have been my best friend for the pae=). i know it sounds corny lar, but thanks for always being there for me whenever i need someone and always bearing with my antics. but you did also burn me k! thanks for the bus rides to school/home and thanks for the joy you brought to me. thanks char, thanks for being you=). if you need me i will also be there for you too=). i will so bloody miss you. miss all your bimbotic moments, the journey home, the walks to florida, everything. argh let's meet up soon k=). and i want my pencil case! love you lots best friend=)

yu guo le, you caihong!

2008-02-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

what the hell i am just feeling so fustrated and battered. i seriously dont know what to do now, what will be my decision. it's not that i wanna skip anything. it's just that i really tied down to alot stuff. schoolwork, the upcoming progress test is getting the hell out of me. cca, just everything in my life seems to go against. and the flooding of emails just worsen everything. what the hell la i know there are consequences to my actions. and i told you all i am willing to face it. you know this stuff just isnt on my priority list. my batch of pae friends are like leaving next week, and you want me to sacrifice them for you just for the two days of shit, sorry, no way. you can call me irresponsible or what, but i CHERISH friendship more than anything. i want to spent these last days with all my friends, charmaine sherrie jianming joshua genia garauv mengseng yeokfei aliya everyone, cant i? sorry i just cant take it anymore. my bottle is full and i gotta rant it all out. if you think i am a bloody joker who is just a happy go lucky chap and is surprised by all this, sorry friend you dont know me. i'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life, you think i like to be a joker of the class and bring laughter to the class. do you think i like the consequences that i gotta face after all these? i dont and i hate it, but i just want my friends out there to live happily and not like me. i want them to leave with happy memories, that they have a wonderful cg with so much fun and laughter, and not a dull pae. argh. everything is just getting hell out of me. i can even have a peaceful resting place, a place for me to cool down, all i have to resort to ranting over here. wilson koh just what the hell are you doing. i dont know.

2007-12-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

TOP=D

WE ARE TOP OF THE TABLE. THANKS TO THAT BOY RONALDO=). ARSENAL GET LOST YOU @#*%! chingay training tomorrow, walau 7am at republic polytechnic which is at WOODLANDS. what the neh=(.

2007-12-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

working at jj place is actually quite shuang haha. get to make new friends lol. went to kok's cell christmas steamboat gathering after work. quite sian actually, but free dinner=). tomorrow christmas party and arsenal vs totteham MUST WATCH. haha anyway get well soon pique, tomorrow dont go work lar.

2007-12-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

DEVILS=)

united year end review.

IF ONLY I OWN THESE STUFF LAR=(. ANYWAY THANKS PIQUE FOR LENDING THESE PRECIOUS STUFF TO ME. THE VIDEOS ARE GREAT=).

2007-12-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

LIVERPOOL 0 MAN UTD 1

another derby between the devils and the scousers. THE DEVILS WON AGAIN=). dont care about the flow of the game, its a typical smash and grab victory that man utd always executed to perfection against liverpool. haha SO SORRY SCOUSERS TRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR. lol and for you information, liverpool have not scored/win/drawn against man utd in epl since benitez took over. get what i mean?=) busy week for me, trainings work and homework. bahhh

there's only one united=)

2007-12-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

HEY, YOU LOST. WE WON=)

2007-12-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

this jersey is ex. haha but manu fans out there dont be scared by the price, it's worth it, cos man utd is the greatest football team on this planet. arsenal belongs to MARS so not counted=).

2007-12-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

people watch this and look what's wrong is this. Sir Alex Ferguson accused Fulham keeper Antti Niemi of conning Rob Styles into booking Cristiano Ronaldo for diving at Old Trafford tonight.
'There is no question their goalkeeper conned the referee,' fumed Ferguson. 'His action forced the referee to book Cristiano. 'Why would he want to go down? He was on a hat-trick, he had gone round the keeper and he was brought down. It was a ridiculous decision.' Ferguson feels the ruling is a legacy of Ronaldo's early days at United, when he was branded a diver after a series of theatrical falls. 'There is this perceived idea of Cristiano that he is going to dive,' he said. 'It is quite unfair because he is nothing like that now. He is more mature and a magnificent footballer. He was one on one and he could not get out of the way.'

Now watch this 3 goals below:

whether its by foot or by head, it looks so easy for him. and he gonna beat kaka to that world player of the year award. sensational.

2007-11-25T01:01:00.000+08:00

omg what the neh tell me how did man utd lost to bolton la. seriously damn pek chek can. tevez u miss an open goal. evra you as selfish as nani. alex u you are stupid to rest ronaldo. still say want to get maximum points from these lowly clubs. lol go die la you.

2007-11-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHERE CAN I GET THIS.

2007-11-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

ARSENAL 2 MAN UTD 2

went to long's house to watch this pulsating match, found out that his family are also die-hard man utd fans. AND WE ALL AGREED THAT MAN UTD SHLD WIN. arsenal really lucky la. 2 stupid goals. REAL STUPID CAN. look at our goals scored. first was brilliant play by BROWN, OMG BROWN, and the second one was by our french connection, TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT WHAT OUR FRENCH CAN DO. ARGHHH. really very pek chek that we didnt win. nvm let chelsea and man city thrash ur ass. bahh

2007-11-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

周杰伦 - 彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就承受不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我选择整瓶服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

2007-10-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

promos is so disappointing. and i think i retain. fuck. sometime ago, u told me to do my best and leave the rest to god, and i tried my really best, but in the end i failed. how do you expect me to trust him once more. and parents should be there to support you, but my arent. they are only there to pull you down, to otrasize you from your family. luckily i have a bunch of gd friends. if not i wouldnt survive till now. thank you all and all the best for you rest of results.

2007-10-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

MAN UTD 4 WIGAN 0

haha thats the way man man utd. back to the old free scoring man utd=). AND KAKA FIFPRO WORLD PLAYER OF THE YEAR LOLOLOL. what a joke. haha nola actually he quite deserve it la, but next year will be fabregas=D.

one more to go. make or break. its up to you, wilson. you know, you will, you can. and leave the rest to the one up there.

2007-10-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

PROMOS I GETTING THE HELL OUT OF ME. RARRRRGH

2007-09-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

MAN UTD 2 CHELSEA 0.

haha we definitely won it with some style. Finally man utd is playing back their old style, the style that won us the free scoring premier league tile last season. haha we definitely can do it again this season. come on, we have faith in you=).

AND AND FABREGAS IS SO DAMN HOT. "ANOTHER GOAL TO ADD TO THE FABREGAS COLLECTION."

2007-09-22T10:37:00.000+08:00

promos starting in a week. mug hard people.

and you are light a lava lamp, so hot and bright.

2007-09-03T17:58:00.000+08:00

went to attend mrs tay's husband's wake yesterday with kel, mel and her mum. it all happened so sudden to her. they were still watching tv and he was so alert, but he left her just 10 mins later. 2 blows within 6 months. it's hard on her definitely. when i heard her humming power of your love and her daughter playing around still not knowing anything, my heart just went..bah. when she told us what happened to mr tay, you could she how difficult it is for her to think about it. but mrs tay i really admire you for staying strong, at least for sin-e. I promise you a kfc to fatten you up during our next 1C gathering. now then i know how fragile is life, one can just leave the world the next second. so people cherish your life and your loved ones surrounding you.

Oh Lord, give her strength to pull it through. Amen.

2007-08-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

feeling so tired of jc life. but this is what i have chosen. come on wilson you had fought this journey for 8 mnths and surely u arent giving it up right. come on you can do it. don forget ur aim, scholar of tpjc.

2007-08-22T19:03:00.000+08:00

just watch a classic match between man utd and liverpool. and i found out we truly need ruud van nistelrooy, the player with a touch of goal. where is the pacy ryan giggs which make defenders dizzy? where is the bombarder scholes whose shot a keper would be afraid of. come on man utd show me another era. hargreaves is there to replace keane. vidic is there to replace jaap stam. ben foster is there to replace our all mighty peter schmicheal. ronaldo is there to replace beckham, though they are different players. nani is there to replace giggs, though he is much slower. but tevez is not there to replace van nistelrooy. and please take away that ferdinand and play pique/evans. i and sick of him. bring in gibson. come on man utd, bring yourself to a greater height. we have faith in you.

2007-08-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

HEART TO HEART AT STURBUCKS

Such an unearthly hour to blog. Just reach home after a heart to heart talk at starbucks. The talk really makes me think alot, letting me know that this bunch of friends are so damn important to me. It brings back to the PAE period, where I was all alone in Mi, a new environment, with so many unfamiliar faces. And I sat in the canteen, and i feel so different. Gone are the days which we were so happily having our break. Gone are the days which we would discuss which girl is chio. Gone are the days which we would play the staring games the the sports class. Gone are the days which we would make a din at the canteen. The feelings are just not there, it let me know that how much i treasure all of you, how much i love all of you, that you all are part of my life. Do you all know how much i miss all of you during that period of time, the days were toturing, so difficult to pass with, it was just unbearable. But luckily, soccer do really bring us back together, and i am just gladful that there is soccer, which really give us fond memories, and i am sure we will treasure each of everyone more from now on. Heart to heart at starbucks is just so emotional, so truthful. I appreciate it alot, even though I was whacked for returning home late, I will not regret at all, but treasure it even more. It let me know how childish I am, how foolish I am. Childish for creating attention wherever I go, childish for harming people emotionally and physically, childish for being so irritationg to people, childish for not caring about people's feeling. Foolish for not learning my mistakes, foolish for indulging in it, foolish for bringing this image along for the past five years. I am so sorry people. I am so sorry for hurting you all, i am so sorry for my childishness and foolishness. I know I have hurt alot of you people, but i really dont mean it. I just feel that that is not the real me. I am just sick of faking a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life. I am sick of carrying this image of me which i had created since sec 1 till now. I just feel that it wasnt the real me. I really do not mean to be like this. I am not good with words, but people do give me a chance. Give me a chance to change for a better. Give me 1 week, and you will see the real wilson.

2007-07-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

went to catch a few floorball matches these few days as school dismissed early. and i began to be in love with the game. found a few good players, mj no. 11(captain) is skillful, fast and strong, imba striker. rj girls no.6(captain) so calm and steady, no afraid of any opponents, so sexy with the cool look=). vj girls no.5 haha strong and keep off strikers, imba defender. vj girls no. 4(captain) box to box player, see her everywhere on the court, great player. haha and the list continues. ppl, floorball is really fun and i hope to set at this game as a new cca at tpj nxt year. so shyang long, hope we will meet each other head to head on court=).

2007-07-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

i am quitting hockey. i am fed up with it and disappointed with the captain. captain oh captain, if you are upset with me for not going for training, just COME STRAIGHT TO MY FACE AND NOT BADMOUTHING ME IN FRONT OF THE COACH. DONT COME OUT WITH YOUR FUCKING BULLSHIT THAT I AM NOT PASSION ABOUT HOCKEY AND DON GO FOR ONE TRAINING AFTER GETTING WHAT I WANT. FUCK TO YOU. I HAVE A MC FOR NOT GOING FOR TRAINING. I AM MORE PASSIONATE THAN YOU, I TRAIN MORE THAN YOU, I PLAY BETTER THAN YOU. COME ON DO YOU THINK I AM SETTLED FOR A VICE CAPTAIN, COME ON YOU GOT A CAPTAIN BECAUSE NOONE WANTS IT, NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE GOOD. NOW LET ME TELL YOU STRAIGHT, I AM QUITTING HOCKEY, AND YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE 1 GOALKEEPER, 2 DEFENDERS 1 MIDFIELDER AND 1 STRIKER, AND YOU ARE LEFT WITH 9 PEOPLE. GOOD LUCK TO YOU. AND IF YOU HAPPEN TO READ THIS. FUCK YOU

2007-07-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

God sent His Son, they called Him Jesus
He came to love, heal and forgive
He lived and died to buy my pardon
An empty grave is there to prove my Saviour lives.
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, all fear is gone
Because I know, I know, He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives
And on the cross, He bore my burdens
He sufferred pain. and shame and scorn
Because He loves, He came to save me
His previous blood can now be found on the Cavalry

2007-05-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

born with a talent to unlock any defence, truly delightful to watch him skid gracefully past oppentnents on the pitch. even the heaven crys out to his brilliance, people, applaud for him.

though ac milan didnt play well, it was a smash and grab victory. so dont grumble liverpool. better think hard how do you spent your money WISELY on players.

2007-05-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽是因为你
寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽是因为你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽是因为你

2007-05-03T04:39:00.000+08:00

ARGH. man utd lost to ac milan.

oh man utd u are just so disappointing today. you just sat back on the 3-2 lead u had and didnt put up a fight at all. you really disappoint those fans who woke up and support u all the way, even till 93min. however, we still love you. better wake up and put a a better performance for the fa cup final showdown against chelsea.

andd to KAKA fans out there, kaka dives and waste time too, so he isnt that perfect=D

2007-05-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

haha man utd vs ac milan tonight, so sexcited by it=D. dad pleasse to not take away the scv box i beg u=S. haha man utd i have in you, and ronaldo will definitely run off kaka legs!!
forzza man utd!
haha kaka will only play magic football when he signs for man utd(kelly heard tt?=d)

more updates nxt time round. haha

2007-04-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some directionAnd I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

sick of this life. *#&*@^!

2007-04-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

Don't take too long to say"I love you"
to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory,
and time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
And I want you by my side,

and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong

2007-04-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

Man Utd 4 Blackburn 1. haha whose the champion ppl? I tell you all Man Utd is gonna win the Treble again, and ronaldo is gonna sweep all the awards for once. haha. Liverpool 4 Arsenal 1, though i don support both these clubs, but I really wanted arsenal to win, fabregas you can do win the nxt match for me, dont you? and i not gonna talk abt chelsea, the bullshit team who wins the game with yet another last minute strike, totally bullshit and boring. Learn from Man Utd and Arsenal la. 1 bloody accident happens during hockey training today. berry was hit by a ball, yes right in his head. perhaps a retribution for him for bullying me on Sat? haha but my sympathy goes out to you. hope you are fine. haha.

2007-03-31T16:12:00.000+08:00

07S27. haha quite a nice class, though i donno much of the people. TPJC isnt slack people! we have Amy and Archie to motivate us. haha. hockey training is so tiring. mon wed fri sat, 4 days of training. wtf. but its bearing fruit=D. and berry if u are unhappy that u had lost ur place u can go and have a heart to heart talk with Samad and not vent you anger on me. 1 more time I swear I going to whack you till u turn strawberry jam. lol

hockey is ownage, floorball is cheat=D.

2007-03-11T17:38:00.000+08:00

Omg havent been back here for so long. haha was busy during this period of month. TPJC. lol and i wont appeal. haha it's not a bad place actually, haha and it's easier for me to achieve my dreams, yea=D. definitely no regrets.

I wanna be a TPJCian
I wanna wear my TP crest
Why I wanna be a TPJCian
Cos TPJC is the best=D

2007-02-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

SINGAPORE, KING OF SOUTH EAST ASIA. haha we are the champions!!=D tributes to all the players, esp nor alam shah our MVP and top scorer of the tournament, and amri for the all improtant goal, and that was a sensational hit. haha tributes to all the fans too, we were definitely the 12th man, the kallang wave, the lion ROARR. "CAMPEONE, OLE OLE OLE!" haha yeah. went for two matches with sphinx, that was really bonding isnt it. haha friday the D-day ppl, wishing all of you all the best for the result! yeah, if result is good, go celebrate with friends and console those who did not do well(can i book a slot with you all for consoling?=D) those who did not do well dont give up, its not the end of the road, cos MI WELCOMES YOU.

haha all the best ppl!=D

2007-01-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

these few days are so tiring, so much of homework and tests. just sick of this life. man utd lost to arsenal=((. aww. but nvm, look whos the top of the table with 6 points clear and superior goal difference=D. and singapore managed a draw with malaysia. PPL PLEASE GO TO THE KALLANG STADIUM TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT FOR THE ALMIGHTY LIONS!! tickets are at $6/$10, pls do go as they need our kallang wave and lion roarrr=D

you are my eight world wonder.

2007-01-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

SINGAPORE 11 LAOS 0

what a sensational performance by singapore. Nor Alam Shah with 7 goals. wth, seven goals, and his last one was a spectacular acrobatic kick. is singapore 2010 dream coming true. with this performance, i have no doubt about it.

haha tingting, dont you think that it is these little conflicts and quarrels that make us stronger, bring us closer together. and you all right, its always after that that we began to cherish each other more. but all of us are sensational=D

2007-01-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday was quite a short day at school cos ITS FRIDAY. supposed to have rugby training but it was raining, so i went back to AHS. hahaha i started ooiing ppl around, and teachers too=D. had a small talk with helen together with yubing and brenda, and i appreciated that. haha den went down to simpang to play soccer until 7+pm with some sphinx mates. it had been a long time since we play soccer together till 7+. those were the days that we found our true self and tasted real fun, isnt it?

the days we had were truly fun, they were pure sensational.

2007-01-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

the clouds may disapppear, the flowers may fade away, but may we meet again, whenever it will be fate.

2007-01-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

now then i realise that i do love ahs. and i do love you. when i saw you, my heart is just filled with joy and delight, that i finally see you. but i was disappointed, you werent that approachable as you were before, we did not even talk to each other, it was totally different from before. my heart broke, do you know that. though we had drifted so far apart from each other, i am still there when you need me, cos all i want is you to be happy.

we do not live to conquer, but to be strong.

2007-01-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

a new school, a new beginning. DE NOVO, theme for MI orientation. wasnt too used to MI, cos its so foreign to me, so unfamiliar. the ppl there so beng, the food there sucks, i don like the school! i don like the ppl there! oh ahs do you know how much i miss you? when i was at the canteen, i sat at the bench and wait, waiting for sphinx to gather, but then i realise i am no longer in ahs. when my bus went past ahs today i actually alighted, when i saw ahs i thought oh mama i am back home, and tears did roll down my cheeks. but i no longer belongs there, now and forever. my journey at ahs had ended. its seems so far to me now. not being emo here, i miss the days at ahs, seriously. but those days had become part of my memories. no more sphinx gathering during recess. no more squabbering during lessons. no more disruption of lessons. no more ai de for me to pull hair. no more gd ppl for me to bully. no more soccer after school. no more close friends to talk to, everything everyone just gone from my world. i just miss everyone. i miss sphinx, i miss 4D, i miss 2C, i miss mama, i miss twin, i miss ying ying, i miss 4 baos, i just miss all my friends. i miss those days where we had fun together. i miss those days when i go around pulling ppl's hair. i miss those days where we stare at those sports class assholes. its just so different now. its a torture to me you know. people say this is part of life, mus be strong and get on with it but are you all sure you can? i swear i cant. i cant cos these friends are just so important to me. they made my life. i am tired with faking out a smile when i cant. i tired of consoling ppl to get on with life when myself just cant do it. don say i am childish or what, but i jus dowan to grow up, i want to stay with these bunch of friends all my life. you guys are my life you all know that? i am tired, seriously tired, i just miss the life in ahs, miss everyone there. i want those days back. days where we are all crazy and idiotic, days where we get into trouble, days where we had so much fun playin soccer, cos these are the time which brought us closer to each other. was it a mistake?=( call me pig call me fat call me whatever you all want, but dont leave me alone ppl, cos i miss all of you.

sorry everyone, my pillar of strength had gone, you arent there for me anymore. sorry girl i think i am being selfish, i didnt think for you but only for myself. sorry girl.
big bear isnt cheerful anymore. i am not as strong as my appearance is.

and i miss you dearly girl.

2007-01-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

2C outing to zoo anyone?=D
i gonna make mission imposible possible=D

2007-01-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

So many emotions going through my head
I'm tired of this pain and rather being dead
I shouldn't feel this way, you're still in my life
But to lose you, my life would fill with strife

This feeling for you can never go away
Cause I'm so in love, each and every day
The girl i see in the future so near
Everything make sense, everything is clear

You're the one with the key to my heart
The one i fell in love with from the start
The one who fights away all my fears
And when I'm sad wipes away my tears

Finishing your sentences like I'm reading your mind
Another thing proving that we're "one of a kind"
Always wishing you'd be with me this day
Always knowing you're in my heart to stay

2006-12-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

haven been here for a long time. i am tired. seriously tired. lets talk about bb farewell. it was fun i shld say, the first day of chalet was kind of a bonding time btwn me and the boys, we had fun playing soccer and chionging midnight lan, and CHIONG RUI PLS REMEMBER TO BRING UR EZ LINK CARD ALONG IF U WAN GO KATONG PLAY LAN. haha i pranked call a sec 2 ncc boy and told him to report at ncc headquarters at 7am the nxt day, haha and he believe me. poor guy sorry i only inform u at 8.30 the nxt day that it was a prank,haha but it was ming jun idea ok! the 2nd day was bb farewell, it was not a 'grand' one, just a few of us gathering having some fun. haha we were playing blackjack and the money i won can buy me a kfc ultimate chicken meal at first, but a switch of place make me lose it all. but you brought me luck, and in the end i can only make do with an ice cream cone=(. orientation was quite a successful one, at least md u didnt screw it up. but boys you all realli disappoint us. where is the discipline and good attitude that we once have? you all are suppose to mt at 9am on thursday but less than 10 were punctual. nvm i bear with it. on orientation you all were suppose to mt at 6am but onli 5 were on time? you all really make us damn fed up. the basic standard, the discipline, the attitude, the passion were all gone. what we see now is a bunch of slackers wasting their time away. its really disappointing. i am stopping here. tired.

and i hope you always stay the same, cos there is nothing 'bout you i would change.

2006-12-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

looking at the class photos realli makes me think alot, realli bring me back to the past when we all just small little kids climbing up the hill to our new school.

year 2003
a new start to my life
13 yrs old
climbing up the hill and
placed my first step into ahs
i was assigned to 1C
boring i thought,
but there were fun and laughter.
joined the 14th coy.
and it all began from here.
cca trainings were tough,
but definitely did not regret joing bb.
not goin home after school,
joining seniors in playing soccer for the whole afternoon.
stacks of homework in my room,
but didnt touch it at all.
started getting into trouble in school,
and father came to school for the first time,
and it wasnt the last time.
i was always reprimanded by teachers,
but i did not give a damn abt it,
cos perhaps i was still a kid, a mischievious one?
my result wasnt that bad,
but it definitely dropped.
and it was the year that i fell in love with you

year 2004
definitely a year to remember
2cee 04
united in a different way=)
and we won the outstanding class award
the fun and laughter we have
will always linger in my memories
and i swear to you, it will be forever.
not forgetting the pain i had
was caned in school for the first time.
twice, and i dropped my first tears in school
it wasnt physically painful.
but emotionally
it hurts when i see the tears rolling down the cheeks of yours,
and you are just right in front of me.
it really hurts you know.
i have disappointed the class
chances and chances you all have given me
but i didnt appreciate them
i got into serious troubles but yet you all still forgive me
i love you 2cee.
we had our class chalet
though it was a short one
but it was definitely one there i will remember
the fun we had, and scoldings too
the oily jacuzzi we had in front of us that we jumped in rite after bbq
yea, true fun.
this is wad we wanted.
the strong class spirit that led us to the outstanding class award.
it was not a easy year for me.
miss the annual camp of bb, and promotions.
results were dropping, to just an average of 50+
i was getting from bad to worse.
and i still love you

year 2005
assigned to 3D
had all my friends there.
it was a fun class to be in,
but it lacks something that 2c had.
the honesty, the true fun.
3D shows hypocrosy,
but we don mind it.
sphinx was formed,
and we were the school runners-up
results were bad, but i still did not buck up
i was still indulge in soccer
though i know it will bring me to nowhere
the naggings and whackings i had realli drive me mad.
i felt so left out.
all i want is happiness and freedom
and i think i can onli find it a the soccer court.
and it will be the place where u want to find the true happy wilson.
i was caned for the second and last time.
for no reason as i was framed.
and my dad came again for the third i last time.
definitely i must wake up from here.
i was aiming for double promos in cca
and i almost had it, but 1 silly mistake took it away.
drop my first tears in cca,
cos i thought i work so hard for it.
discouraged, depressed.
and i still love you.

year 2006
things were beginning to be right.
thanks to ms ow for ur guidance in 2005
results was improving, but it was a slow one
definitely i mus grow up, i think i had.
beginning to be more matured
not getting into serious troubles.
but instead spent time mugging ang mugging
but results werent showing for prelims
that was my punishment
and i had it in a hard way
but wilson u mus learn to accept
how can u finish studying wad people had been studying for 4 yrs in less than a year.
but nvm i know you had tried your best.
lets just pray for o's result to be good.
its the end of my secondary school life
the culmination of four years of bonding, laughter, fun, sorrow, pain
all these has come to the end.

thank you ahs for naturing me into a useful person.
thank you 2cee for showing me love and concern when i needed them most.
thank you mel for understanding me and not blame me.
thank you jonneh for telling mr lim not to sospend me.
thank you kenny for not being angry even though i love to bully you.
thank you kien wei for being such a great friend.
thank you yuan zhi for treating me like a bro .
thank you yulan for your advices, and i think i have grown up too.
thank you yijia as your incident had realli make me grown up.
thank you mrs neo and mdm lur for always being so forgiving.
thank you miss ow for ur guidance and advices,
your words realli makes me think.
thank you mrs chew for ur tolerance and patience,
though i have been giving you trouble,
you has always been that tolreant with me and refraing from telling my dad,
thank you for your understanding,
i am definitely 1 of the men in your life.
thank you sphinx for the fun and laughter.
thank you ying ying for being there as a true friend when i needed one,
thank you for being a great classmate for 6 years.
thank you mama for being a great friend for 4 years,
thank you for being there when i needed someone,
thank you for forgiving me though i always bully you,
thank you for your advices and counselling,
next year u must realli take care,
cos no more big guy to stand up for you le,
so you mus be strong and learn to protect yourself!
and i swear you are definitely 1 of the women in my life.

thankyou people for being part of me.
and i still love you, like i love you then.

2006-12-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

白色的风车安静的转着
真实的感觉梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福当爱你并不孤独不会再让你哭
我背你走到最后能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么反正不会松手
我背你走到最后能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远

2006-12-10T15:30:00.000+08:00

hey peeps, haha let me tell you this, although you won believe that I will say this, I was touched by the holy spirit. and yes, i drop my first tears in a service today. kinda surprise that this will happen to me, but i was so touched by the pastors, and our Saviour. I went for a service at cornerstone, it is alot better than i expected, seriously, i felt warmth at the place and everyone is so enthu can. EVERYONE. a lesson learnt today, forgive and love your enemy. i went home, same home, same parents, same circumstances. and i will nvr take my hurts which i left at the altar back, cos our GOD is migthy to save. thanks for reminding me mama=D.

girl i find it so hard to stop missing you, it's impossible. cos i love you.

2006-12-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

i miss you badly girl. hope you are fine.

2006-12-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

back from chalet. haha its for a meaningful chalet to me? cos i learnt something from it. 1st day was fun cos we played indian poker as a class, haha and the loser got spank on the forehead. haha isnt it cool? den we move on to stupid lame games played in a show(tian cai chong chong chong). haha den at nite we watch eye ten, but after awhile i was quite sian and went out for a stroll at the beach. its was cold and scary cos i was alone as lester and calanthea pangsei me and went to slp, but at least images of you are accompanying me. and i swear i saw a shooting star. and i wished that you will appear infront of me immediately. but the wish didnt came through=(. second dae we woke up and went play xbox and pool. pool was fun cos i owned everyone, until zimu came when i onli win 2 games after playin 3 games with him. den at nite was gossiping time at the beach. me jc abra and mel were at the beach talking rubbish, but it was fun=). third day was bbq time, and something bad happened and i spoilt the day. nt going to talk abt it as it was scarey. i jus wanna say sorry fren for hurting you, and i dont mean it k. and i learnt not to be playful. then the nxt dae we left the chalet and me les kok and jj go play pool and xbox, and i realise i didnt have money to go home or eat. thanks mama for the intention to give me money, but too bad i walked home=D. And when i reached home its sleeping time=D.

i miss you badly girl

2006-12-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

forgiven
I stand forgiven in your love
on the cross of calvary
you set this prisoner free
forever I'm yours

I stand before your throne
in a robe of righteousness
join the angels singing
glory to the lamb
it's not by the works
or the things that I have done
its by your hand of grace
through Jesus the son

singing glory to the lamb
singing glory to the lamb
singing glory to the lamb
I stand forgiven

2006-12-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

Thank you M I am feeling so much better after some sleep and some thoughts. Thanks for consoling me and thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to, aww this sounds so gay. Haha. You are really one super uber ultra rocking friend leh=D. Haha M is so cute can and who bully M better watch out, cos I will be all out to get you=D. Hahahahaha.
Though life is unfair, I feel that it's challenging and cool? Haha fellow friends don't ever think of committing suicide or don funny funny things when you feel that life is so unbearable. Haha I had beared with mine for 16 years, so I think you all can do it too? Haha what bullshit.
4D chalet 4th to 7th dec and YES! I will not be back home to face you 2! lol. Hope this year chalet will be different from last year. Make it more fun and cool man fellow classmates=D

2006-12-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2006-12-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

parents are abusive.
parents are unreasonable.
parents think that you are always wrong
and THEY are always right.
parents scold you and whack you for the wrong reasons.
but what can u do? retaliate?
then god will punish you.
parents don give children freedom.
and if you want it,
you had to pay for it.
One day i should really sing welcome to my life to both of you.
and maybe you all wont understand.
or maybe you all will.
in all case, i just hate you all.

2006-12-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love, it's suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I pray to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can't promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you.

This I promise.

2006-12-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

Sometime it’s hard, just to be yourself
I know you know,
So close to tear, wanting to give all
I feel all alone
But now you here, right by my side
I just want you to know…whoa
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high, touching the sk
you make me fly
Now I am stronger then I was before
Because of you
I feel so alive, and I wanting more
I can’t believe it true
Now you’re here, right by my side
Don’t ever let me go…whoa
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high, touching the sky
you make me flyyyyyy
baby, Come fly away with me.
You give me wing when I’m falling
That why I’m saying to you
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Touching the sky
you make me fly
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high
Touching the sky
you make me fly.
You give me wing.

2006-08-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

Loneliness is what i felt
Openess is what i am
Very empty inside when i never see you
Every second of everyday i think about
YOU
Perhaps you dont feel it
How much i love you
And how much i have done for you
You are on my mind night and day
Keep shining, keep smiling
Every since i know you
You are always on my mind

2006-08-01T18:44:00.000+08:00

You are beautiful beyond description,
Too marvellous for words.
Who can fathom the depth of my love for you,
Oh girl, I am really in love with you

2006-08-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

girl I know that you are sad, but dont give up on yourself. I know its difficult for you to let it go, but what for torture yourself? you have so many friends around you who do care for you, friends that will be there for you 24/7. so girl pull yourself up, noone can help you but only you yourself can. cheer up girl. I really want to see your smiling face again.

wherever you are,
if you need someone,
call for me,
I'll be there for you.
That I promise.

keep smiling, keep shining=D

2006-07-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

I never was struck before that hour

With love so sudden and so sweet.

Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower

And stole my heart away complete.

My face turned pale, a deadly pale.

My legs refused to walk away,

And when she looked what could I ail

My life and all seemed turned to clay.

And then my blood rushed to my face

And took my eyesight quite away.

The trees and bushes round the place

Seemed midnight at noonday.

I could not see a single thing,

Words from my eyes did start.

They spoke as chords do from the string,

And blood burnt round my heart.

Are flowers the winter's choice

Is love's bed always snow

She seemed to hear my silent voice

Not love appeals to know.

I never saw so sweet a face

As that I stood before.

My heart has left its dwelling place

And can return no more.

2006-04-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

finally back here after a year, thanks to gina. haha. anw todae we had our language paper 2s, and guess wad, i am goin to flunk both. lol. (2 hrs to complete 4 comprehension + 1 cloze passage + 1 summary) = impossible. and english i don know how to do summary!!! lol. my father is goin to kill me man. maybe the minister should do something man, extend the 2 hrs to 2 1/2 hrs can? after tt we went to airport to study, not see chio bus hor. and i manage finish studying 1 theme for ss, what an achievement for me. the last paper end at 15/5. school u suck man, u have the choice to end it at 11 may but u don, u purposely want me to study during my birthdae rite, do u know i gotta celebrate with my mum as it is mothers' day. lol. 11 paper to go. i must strive on, for the sake of vjc.

2005-06-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

I love you so much that words can't explain
this joy that I have for you.
When I am at the weakest point of my life
you are there encouraging me to run this race
because I am not only cause you are there with me.
You are on my mind day and night.
When we are apart I picture you gracious smile and gentle hug.
I can let my feelings out to you and won't regret it
because no matter what is you are always on my side.
I thank God for sending me someone like you who is precious and loving.
So I can truly say that you are the Angel of My Life!

2005-01-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

We started as friends
But something happened inside me
That changed my thoughts abt u
Now I'm afraid of everything
Coz I don’t know where this friendship will go
You don't ever notice what I do
Or even wonder why I'm always where you are I've made clear and obvious
Done everything to show u
But told u how I feel I'm not so good with words
And since you never know
The way that I feel
I'll never get a chance to hold u
I've heard you talk about
How you want someone just like me
But every time I get to ask you out
We never move any further step a part from been friends
And you don't ever notice how I stare at u when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
I'm not so good with words
I don’t know how to tell u
And since you never know
The way that I feel abt u
I’ll be here all alone
Your face is the very first thought in the morning
And my very last at nightfall
I don’t know how I realized that I loved u more then friends
You are the love that came without warning I need you to be mine,
I want you to know how I feel
I will be waiting for the day that we belong together
And I will be waiting for u to hold me
I've wanted you for so long but you always get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see how I feel
I will be waiting for the day to come true (the day you're holding me)
Until then I am happy been close friends

2005-01-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

There's lots of things
With which I'm blessed,
Tho' my life's been both Sunny and Blue,
But of all my blessings,
This one's the best:
To have a friend like you.

In times of trouble
Friends will say,
"Just ask... I'll help you through it."
But you don't wait for me to ask,
You just get up
And you do it!

And I can think
Of nothing in life
That I could more wisely do,
Than know a friend,
And be a friend,
And love a friend... like you.

2005-01-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

One day I wrote her name upon the strand,
But came the waves and washed it away:
Again I wrote it with a second hand,
But came the tide, and made my pains his prey.
Vain man, said she, that dost in vain assay
A mortal thing so to immortalize!
For I myself shall like to this decay,
And eek my name be wiped out likewise.
Not so (quoth I), let baser things devise
To die in dust, but you shall live by fame:
My verse your virtues rare shall eternize,
And in the heavens write your glorious name;
Where, whenas death shall all the world subdue,
Our love shall live, and later life renew.

2005-01-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

2004-05-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

You never know how much i loves you,
you never know how much i really cares for you.
Listen, do you want to know a secret???
Do promise you never tell, never...
I am in love with you......

2004-05-21T20:53:00.000+08:00

I can hear her heartbeat from thousands of miles away,
and the heaven opens up when she smiles.
And everytime when i come near here,
it's somewhere I belong.
I am running through her,
like a river song.
She makes me loves her so much, so much, so much...
crazy love!
She makes me smile when i look at her,
feeling low and down.
And I am walking to her,
when the sun is down.
Oh, take away my unhappiness,
take away my grief.
Take away my heartaches in the night like a thief.
I need her in the daytime,
and i need her in the night.
I want to love her around,
but i know it's impossible....
When i am returning from faraway,
give mi some sweet feelings,
that brightens up my day.
And it makes me righteous,
it makes me whole.
It makes me mellow,
right down my soul......

2004-05-20T14:47:00.000+08:00

There’s a place for just the two of us,
There’s a love for us to share,
Something special just the two if us

Wishing on my star
That I don’t spend a lifetime without you,
Without you

She’s gonna make it alright,
And hold me inside,
She’s all on my mind.

If I thought for just one second, girl,
You’d be seeing someone new,
And if I didn’t know you better girl,

Wishing on my star
To heal this empty feeling,
Without you

She’s gonna make it alright,
And hold me inside,
She’s all on my mind.

Look in my eyes,
And take what you wanna,
Look in my heart,
There’s a place for you,
Some other loving,
It doesn’t make a bit of sense
You know I didn’t mind when
You stole my heart...

She’s gonna make it alright,
And hold me inside,
She’s all on my mind.

She’s gonna make it alright,
And hold me inside,
She’s all on my mind.

2004-05-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

Everybody in this place can up and move away
For all I care this town’s already dead and empty
I’m told that I’m a victim of obsession
That’s what my friends say
Oh I’m a fool for having ever let her tempt me

Well I turn pale when she walks by
I am lost in her eyes
She is always on my mind
She is always on my mind

She glances over but she keeps on walking down that street
All I can do is hope that she is thinking of me
If I could blink if I could breathe if I could get my legs to move
Well this could be the day I get this girl to love me

Well I turn pale when she walks by
I am lost in her eyes
She is always on my mind
She is always on my mind
She had turned from a sound,
Well I must have cried out loud
She is always on my mind
She is always on my mind

2004-05-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

exams have finished...=)!!! yesterdae went to watch van helsing, the most memorable movie i had ever watch...with the three gals screaming and yelling at the back...haha...u all noe who u all are..haha after that the gals went to watch 50 first dates.. while we went to abraham's house dere play soccer...haiz...why didnt i follow them to watch fifthy first dates...

2004-05-12T10:41:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry for me buggin you
Sorry for being such a fool
God knows I’ve tried but I can’t let go
I’m crazy ‘bout you know who
I’m sorry for me needing you
Sorry girl that you don feel it too
I get the point, should be a man about it
I’ve never been good that- no no
Forgive me for being me
I’ve tried to let go
I know you got a boyfriend- another man
Another guy by your side
Someone who hopefully treats you right
But you don’t know how much I wish I was
Your boyfriend- that other guy
The only one who’s allowed
In your room to lay in your arms at night
Now u don’t know how much I wish I was your boyfriend
I’m sorry for me wanting you
Sorry for not playing by the rules
But what would you do if u were in my shoes
Feeling lost and blue Mnn
Another man is by your side
I hope he treats you right
I wish I was the only one
To lay in your arms at night
Well you can’t blame a guy for tryin’
Now what else can I do
And how I wish that my prayers, thoughts and dreams
Would become reality

2004-05-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long,
but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

2004-05-08T14:24:00.000+08:00

GOD
GRANT
US THE
SERENITY to accept
the things we cannot change
The courage to change the
Things
I can
And the
Wisdom
to Know the
DIFFERENCE
AMEN

2004-05-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

exam is comin le...so may be no time to blog le...by the way....wish u all good luck for the mid year examination!!!

2004-05-07T14:39:00.000+08:00

sad.afraid.remorseful.i am sad for ting shen and jovi...auctually, they are not involved in the organised theft de...budden because of theif thier greed, den kanna public caning...yong quan yong quan....will u wake up and turn over a new leaf??? Why did u have to pull ting shen and the others luo shuai wif u ne? why do u have to do tt??? Why?? Juz because u dun wan to face the music urself??? I dun noe. Ting shen and jovi...thanx for protecting mi for this few daes....i realli feel tt u all should not kanna public caning wan lor....haiz...budden what is cannot be undone rite??? so, now u muz realli learn ur lesson and turn over a new leaf k??? I will support both of u all the way...kambade!!!

2004-05-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

sianz...can sumone help mi wif mi chinese compo??? I still owe hou zhi yong 3 chinese compo... finish 2 le...but still left 1 more. =(...Can sumone help mi plz?? coz i no time to do. chinese sux man!!! hou zhi yong also...wan mi to finish 3 compositions in a dae...which is highly impossible for mi...who is a lazi bum to accomplish it de...haiz...wad shld i do now??? shld i copy??? i dun noe...

still waiting for ur answer...u noe hu u r...

2004-05-06T16:41:00.000+08:00

tired, tired and tired!!! didnt slept yesterdae as i watch the match between chelsea and monaco. In the end, monaco won..so pissed off man. I wanted chelsea to win de, budden...haiz..=(. sad...i betrayed mi fren...i did not wan to do so de...but she forced mi..sorri...=(. embarassed...y did magaret jie tell the ppl at i was sleepin??? why did she had to do tt??? juz to embarassed mi?=( As I watched you walk away in the rain, I wish I could do something, but my heart was aching, I didnt know what more to say, you continued walking, u didn't turn back...i wish that i can walk up to u wif an umbrella...but i didnt have the courage...haiz...Am I wrong in loving you so deeply? You hate me don't you... you hate me sooooo much right? tell mi u realli hate mi...dun let mi waste my time by waiting for u...haiz...=(

waiting for ur answer...u noe hu u are...