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Saturday, December 30, 2006
haven been here for a long time. i am tired. seriously tired. lets talk about bb farewell. it was fun i shld say, the first day of chalet was kind of a bonding time btwn me and the boys, we had fun playing soccer and chionging midnight lan, and CHIONG RUI PLS REMEMBER TO BRING UR EZ LINK CARD ALONG IF U WAN GO KATONG PLAY LAN. haha i pranked call a sec 2 ncc boy and told him to report at ncc headquarters at 7am the nxt day, haha and he believe me. poor guy sorry i only inform u at 8.30 the nxt day that it was a prank,haha but it was ming jun idea ok! the 2nd day was bb farewell, it was not a 'grand' one, just a few of us gathering having some fun. haha we were playing blackjack and the money i won can buy me a kfc ultimate chicken meal at first, but a switch of place make me lose it all. but you brought me luck, and in the end i can only make do with an ice cream cone=(. orientation was quite a successful one, at least md u didnt screw it up. but boys you all realli disappoint us. where is the discipline and good attitude that we once have? you all are suppose to mt at 9am on thursday but less than 10 were punctual. nvm i bear with it. on orientation you all were suppose to mt at 6am but onli 5 were on time? you all really make us damn fed up. the basic standard, the discipline, the attitude, the passion were all gone. what we see now is a bunch of slackers wasting their time away. its really disappointing. i am stopping here. tired.
and i hope you always stay the same, cos there is nothing 'bout you i would change.
goal; 5:08:00 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
looking at the class photos realli makes me think alot, realli bring me back to the past when we all just small little kids climbing up the hill to our new school.
year 2003
a new start to my life
13 yrs old
climbing up the hill and
placed my first step into ahs
i was assigned to 1C
boring i thought,
but there were fun and laughter.
joined the 14th coy.
and it all began from here.
cca trainings were tough,
but definitely did not regret joing bb.
not goin home after school,
joining seniors in playing soccer for the whole afternoon.
stacks of homework in my room,
but didnt touch it at all.
started getting into trouble in school,
and father came to school for the first time,
and it wasnt the last time.
i was always reprimanded by teachers,
but i did not give a damn abt it,
cos perhaps i was still a kid, a mischievious one?
my result wasnt that bad,
but it definitely dropped.
and it was the year that i fell in love with you
year 2004
definitely a year to remember
2cee 04
united in a different way=)
and we won the outstanding class award
the fun and laughter we have
will always linger in my memories
and i swear to you, it will be forever.
not forgetting the pain i had
was caned in school for the first time.
twice, and i dropped my first tears in school
it wasnt physically painful.
but emotionally
it hurts when i see the tears rolling down the cheeks of yours,
and you are just right in front of me.
it really hurts you know.
i have disappointed the class
chances and chances you all have given me
but i didnt appreciate them
i got into serious troubles but yet you all still forgive me
i love you 2cee.
we had our class chalet
though it was a short one
but it was definitely one there i will remember
the fun we had, and scoldings too
the oily jacuzzi we had in front of us that we jumped in rite after bbq
yea, true fun.
this is wad we wanted.
the strong class spirit that led us to the outstanding class award.
it was not a easy year for me.
miss the annual camp of bb, and promotions.
results were dropping, to just an average of 50+
i was getting from bad to worse.
and i still love you
year 2005
assigned to 3D
had all my friends there.
it was a fun class to be in,
but it lacks something that 2c had.
the honesty, the true fun.
3D shows hypocrosy,
but we don mind it.
sphinx was formed,
and we were the school runners-up
results were bad, but i still did not buck up
i was still indulge in soccer
though i know it will bring me to nowhere
the naggings and whackings i had realli drive me mad.
i felt so left out.
all i want is happiness and freedom
and i think i can onli find it a the soccer court.
and it will be the place where u want to find the true happy wilson.
i was caned for the second and last time.
for no reason as i was framed.
and my dad came again for the third i last time.
definitely i must wake up from here.
i was aiming for double promos in cca
and i almost had it, but 1 silly mistake took it away.
drop my first tears in cca,
cos i thought i work so hard for it.
discouraged, depressed.
and i still love you.
year 2006
things were beginning to be right.
thanks to ms ow for ur guidance in 2005
results was improving, but it was a slow one
definitely i mus grow up, i think i had.
beginning to be more matured
not getting into serious troubles.
but instead spent time mugging ang mugging
but results werent showing for prelims
that was my punishment
and i had it in a hard way
but wilson u mus learn to accept
how can u finish studying wad people had been studying for 4 yrs in less than a year.
but nvm i know you had tried your best.
lets just pray for o's result to be good.
its the end of my secondary school life
the culmination of four years of bonding, laughter, fun, sorrow, pain
all these has come to the end.
thank you ahs for naturing me into a useful person.
thank you 2cee for showing me love and concern when i needed them most.
thank you mel for understanding me and not blame me.
thank you jonneh for telling mr lim not to sospend me.
thank you kenny for not being angry even though i love to bully you.
thank you kien wei for being such a great friend.
thank you yuan zhi for treating me like a bro .
thank you yulan for your advices, and i think i have grown up too.
thank you yijia as your incident had realli make me grown up.
thank you mrs neo and mdm lur for always being so forgiving.
thank you miss ow for ur guidance and advices,
your words realli makes me think.
thank you mrs chew for ur tolerance and patience,
though i have been giving you trouble,
you has always been that tolreant with me and refraing from telling my dad,
thank you for your understanding,
i am definitely 1 of the men in your life.
thank you sphinx for the fun and laughter.
thank you ying ying for being there as a true friend when i needed one,
thank you for being a great classmate for 6 years.
thank you mama for being a great friend for 4 years,
thank you for being there when i needed someone,
thank you for forgiving me though i always bully you,
thank you for your advices and counselling,
next year u must realli take care,
cos no more big guy to stand up for you le,
so you mus be strong and learn to protect yourself!
and i swear you are definitely 1 of the women in my life.
thankyou people for being part of me.
and i still love you, like i love you then.
goal; 6:59:00 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
白色的风车 安静的转着
真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着 握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头 我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福 当爱你并不孤独 不会再让你哭
我背你走到最后 能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我 说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么 反正不会松手
我背你走到最后 能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手 晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见 只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见 因为我在等待永远
goal; 10:35:00 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
hey peeps, haha let me tell you this, although you won believe that I will say this, I was touched by the holy spirit. and yes, i drop my first tears in a service today. kinda surprise that this will happen to me, but i was so touched by the pastors, and our Saviour. I went for a service at cornerstone, it is alot better than i expected, seriously, i felt warmth at the place and everyone is so enthu can. EVERYONE. a lesson learnt today, forgive and love your enemy. i went home, same home, same parents, same circumstances. and i will nvr take my hurts which i left at the altar back, cos our GOD is migthy to save. thanks for reminding me mama=D.
girl i find it so hard to stop missing you, it's impossible. cos i love you.
goal; 3:30:00 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
i miss you badly girl. hope you are fine.
goal; 8:22:00 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
back from chalet. haha its for a meaningful chalet to me? cos i learnt something from it. 1st day was fun cos we played indian poker as a class, haha and the loser got spank on the forehead. haha isnt it cool? den we move on to stupid lame games played in a show(tian cai chong chong chong). haha den at nite we watch eye ten, but after awhile i was quite sian and went out for a stroll at the beach. its was cold and scary cos i was alone as lester and calanthea pangsei me and went to slp, but at least images of you are accompanying me. and i swear i saw a shooting star. and i wished that you will appear infront of me immediately. but the wish didnt came through=(. second dae we woke up and went play xbox and pool. pool was fun cos i owned everyone, until zimu came when i onli win 2 games after playin 3 games with him. den at nite was gossiping time at the beach. me jc abra and mel were at the beach talking rubbish, but it was fun=). third day was bbq time, and something bad happened and i spoilt the day. nt going to talk abt it as it was scarey. i jus wanna say sorry fren for hurting you, and i dont mean it k. and i learnt not to be playful. then the nxt dae we left the chalet and me les kok and jj go play pool and xbox, and i realise i didnt have money to go home or eat. thanks mama for the intention to give me money, but too bad i walked home=D. And when i reached home its sleeping time=D.
i miss you badly girl
goal; 8:33:00 PM
forgiven
I stand forgiven in your love
on the cross of calvary
you set this prisoner free
forever I'm yours
I stand before your throne
in a robe of righteousness
join the angels singing
glory to the lamb
it's not by the works
or the things that I have done
its by your hand of grace
through Jesus the son
singing glory to the lamb
singing glory to the lamb
singing glory to the lamb
I stand forgiven
goal; 4:31:00 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
Thank you M I am feeling so much better after some sleep and some thoughts. Thanks for consoling me and thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to, aww this sounds so gay. Haha. You are really one super uber ultra rocking friend leh=D. Haha M is so cute can and who bully M better watch out, cos I will be all out to get you=D. Hahahahaha.
Though life is unfair, I feel that it's challenging and cool? Haha fellow friends don't ever think of committing suicide or don funny funny things when you feel that life is so unbearable. Haha I had beared with mine for 16 years, so I think you all can do it too? Haha what bullshit.
4D chalet 4th to 7th dec and YES! I will not be back home to face you 2! lol. Hope this year chalet will be different from last year. Make it more fun and cool man fellow classmates=D
goal; 10:21:00 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
goal; 11:10:00 PM
parents are abusive.
parents are unreasonable.
parents think that you are always wrong
and THEY are always right.
parents scold you and whack you for the wrong reasons.
but what can u do? retaliate?
then god will punish you.
parents don give children freedom.
and if you want it,
you had to pay for it.
One day i should really sing welcome to my life to both of you.
and maybe you all wont understand.
or maybe you all will.
in all case, i just hate you all.
goal; 10:50:00 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love, it's suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I pray to God you'll give me one more chance, girl
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can't promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you.
This I promise.
goal; 4:22:00 PM
Friday, December 01, 2006
Sometime it’s hard, just to be yourself
I know you know,
So close to tear, wanting to give all
I feel all alone
But now you here, right by my side
I just want you to know…whoa
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high, touching the sk
you make me fly
Now I am stronger then I was before
Because of you
I feel so alive, and I wanting more
I can’t believe it true
Now you’re here, right by my side
Don’t ever let me go…whoa
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high, touching the sky
you make me flyyyyyy
baby, Come fly away with me.
You give me wing when I’m falling
That why I’m saying to you
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Touching the sky
you make me fly
You give me wing when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high
Touching the sky
you make me fly.
You give me wing.
goal; 7:10:00 PM